KAYLA’S AP BLOG

   I had planned to be a nurse but I'm not really sure If its what I want to do. I actually don't think I ever wanted to be a nurse but its honestly a go to when you don't know what you want to do. I also don't know If I want to be a nurse because I have seen a lot of stuff on the internet about how hard nursing school is and how stressful it is. I really don't think that I would do well in nursing school. So now I'm exploring my options and trying new things like dental school and early childhood education.

    From what I have heard life does not get better it just gets harder and more stressful. If I find high school hard then I know college will be worse. Even when I am done with college There will always be challenges and stress from my job.  There will also be stress at home from worrying about raising my kids the right way or even having kids, finding love, marriage and settling down. At the end of the day there are always problems and it won't get easier or better.

 After scrolling on instagram to find someone I forgot I realized I forgot my 2nd grade teacher Ms.Frye. She was really sweet to me. When I was hospitalized she came to visit me and had the class make a poster for me telling me to get well soon. She was literally my favorite teacher.

  Just recently our friend group was going through some problems because one friend decided to talk to another friend's ex.  I'll name one of them Lexi and the other Kim. So Lexi was dating a boy that I'll name Josh. They broke up because Josh cheated on her. Fast forward to this school year Josh was telling Lexi that he still loved her but was flirting with Kim. Kim came to me and my sister and told us that she had feelings for Josh so me and my sister told her that she needed to tell Lexi and she said she was.  So she eventually told Lexi and Lexi had said that she could tell.She also said that it was weird to her. As time went on Lexi and Kim started acting weird to each other which was making it hard for the whole friend group. I also want to point out the fact that Josh had a girlfriend at the time and was posting her a lot on instagram . So anyways, Josh had told Lexi that he was not gonna be talking to Kim anymore and he didn't. So Lexi told me and my sister this

  For this one I'm just gonna talk about how ungrateful my dads side of the family is. For starters last year for Father's Day I got my dad a $200 cycling machine.Keep in mind that I got him exactly what he asked for. He used it maybe once the whole time he had it. My grandma on my dads side of the family is so ungrateful too she kept on bugging me about getting her something for Christmas so I had got her a set from Bath and Body Works. I got her the lotion, perfume, the body wash, the shower gel, and the solid perfume stick thing that you rub on yourself. She never used it so every time I came over there i used it.

 I recently realized that my mother always keeps stuff from me and my sister. Most times she will wait until the absolute last minute to tell us. The first time I can remember her doing this was when my great auntie had pancreatic cancer. She told us the day before she died to tell us that she had cancer and wasn't doing well and she might not make it. Another time she did this is when my great grandma was dying. It was the summer after 9th grade during the pandemic.  All of our friends were at our house when she told us to get dressed to go see her because she might not make it through the night. When she said that me and Kyla were very confused because we didn't know anything was wrong with her. When we got to Mommie's house we said our goodbyes and then went home. Later that day we went back over there with Ja'Niya and Nadia and the rest of our family. After about 30 minutes she had died and everyone was crying everyone was so emotional it was so sad. 

  I used to know how to sew. In 5th grade I was in the sewing club at my school and made at lot of stuff. Once I made some cute shorts out of old jeans. Another time we had a fashion show where we made clothes from the 20's. I made two dresses and a jumpsuit they were pretty nice for me to be in the 5th grade. Me and Kyla like sewing so much we got a sewing machine for Christmas and made purses for all the women in our family for Mother's Day. Unfortunately after we ran out of fabric we never got anymore and never used that sewing machine again.

 I honestly Can't for the life of me remember my dad's birthday. It does not matter how many times people tell me i just can't remember. The only thing I know is that his birthday is in January. This year I kinda forgot his birthday so he texted my and my sister in his feelings about it. I really felt dad because I was broke and couldn't even buy him anything so that just made it worse. I still am not exactly sure when his birthday is I think its the 25th of January.

  A time I knew I was in trouble is when my sister put a hole in the wall. It all started when my older sister was trying to scale up the wall. we knew it was a bad idea but we continued to laugh and encourage her to keep trying. Then my  other sister tried but she couldn't do it. then next thing you know there is a hole in the wall with my sisters leg inside of it . We immediately started to panic and cry because we knew we were in big trouble. After we calmed down we made a plan that we would lie and say we were walking out the room and my sister fell and hit her head on the wall which made the hole . When we were about to go into our parents room we rubbed the dry wall on her head and hit her so she would cry. Then we told our mama what happened but when she saw the hole in the wall she immediately knew that we lied and told our step dad to whoop us when he got home. Luckily it didn't hurt because we layered up. 

  I believe I have too many siblings. This is because due to me having a lot of siblings there are things I can't do . Like when I want to do things in the summer I can't because I often have to watch my siblings. Secondly I feel I have too many siblings because sometimes my parents can't afford to do things for me because they have done things for 5 of my other siblings. Also, due to most of us being girls getting our hair done is super expensive so I often have to persuade my parents to pay for my hair when I can do it myself.  

 Some thing I can't deny is that money makes the world go around. I say this because money is essential to life.You literally need money to do any and everything.For thing like education to sanitary items you need money. Money also makes things happen in life. It's how the government can improve our lives. 

   The only person I can somewhat remember being born is my brother Jayce.  He was born March 26, 2018 at Northside Hospital. The day was honestly a blur. Me and Kyla had just gotten out of school when my grandma aka mamama came to get us and took us to the hospital I remember being nervous because my moms pregnancy was considered high risk because of her age. when we got to the hospital we waited a little then we went to the cafeteria and got some McDonalds. After that we went back up to the room and  saw the baby, he was so lightskinned and really looked like every other newborn I have ever seen. A few days after my mama and Jayce came home and got on my nerves.

 I often find myself obsessing over fictional characters. Just yesterday I was thinking about Edward from the Twilight series. He is literally my favorite character from that movie.People always say they are team Jacob but I always reply that the must have never seen the whole movie. Edward is the best looking male character but He might have some competition when it comes to Jasper. Edward is also so sweet and romantic. He would visit at night and they would just talk.He is literally obsessed with her. He was gonna kill himself when he thought Bella died it was really sweet. My favorite scene with him in it would have to be when him and Bella were in the same class together and he was acting so weird towards her it was really funny and I oddly memorized every word from that scene.To sum up my rant he is the greatest fictional character ever.

 I recently dressed inappropriately for an occasion when I had to teach a class. When I tried the dress on I didn't look like there was anything wrong with it but as soon as I got to the school things went left. The dress showed a little cleavage but when I got to school and started actually moving around it got worse. After first period I was walking to the healthcare class to prepare to teach when Ms.Smith had stopped me and asked me If I had a sweater or a jacket that I could wear.I had told er no so she went to the healthcare class with me to find some safety pins. When we got to the healthcare room we found some safety pins and fixed it. She then told me to embrace my body and that I should love my body. She really made my day.